Fic: Frustration

[crabby_lioness]

Title: Frustration

Author: CrabbyLioness 

Characters: Jack, Ianto 

Summary:  The Courtship of Ianto Jones

Spoilers through Sleeper

Disclaimer: Property of the BBC & their people. I'm not making a penny. 

Rating:  PG

Word Count:  457

He's driving me crazy.

Okay, I admit it, I deserve everything he's doing to me and worse.  After the way I treated him I'm lucky he's taking me back at all.  I have no right to complain about how slow he's going or about him making me wait.

Wait while he marks me as his with public words instead of unseen bites and scratches.

Wait while he establishes his rights.

His right to set the boundaries.  His right to tell me what to do when it isn't a command decision.  His right to take me down a peg when he thinks I need it.  His right to yell at me when I get myself killed again.

His right to tell Gwen I'm an insensitive boob in bed?

Okay, I totally didn't see that one coming.  I'm not sure I like it.  I mean, I'm used to lovers who blab everything, but I don't know if I want us to be that way.  We're forging something different here.  That's going to be on the list of my boundaries.

When I earn back the right to set boundaries.

If it was up to me we'd skip straight to his right to nail me through the mattress, but he's setting the pace.  We haven't even kissed yet.  It's maddening.

Not that there haven't been touches.  Lingering brushes from his fingers when he gives he things, full-body rubs when he passes me too closely in the hallway, hands ghosting over my ass when no one is around.  All the things I used to do to him.  I lean in to them but he glares me back into my place.  I want to tear that bright red shirt off him and throw him over my desk, but that would be an "insensitive boob" thing to do.

I try fluttering my lashes at him and suggest that we could have a lot of fun exploring his sadistic tendencies in bed.  He smirks, and I can tell he's having a lot of fun now.

I want him so badly.  And that new confidence and sense of humor he's found?  I can come just from thinking about what that's going to be like in the bedroom!

Thank God he hasn't told me I can't wank off.  Not that it does any good.  Neither would going out to a club and picking up a one-night stand.  Besides being an "insensitive boob" thing to do, I'm tired of one-night stands.  I want someone who cares enough to yell at me when I get myself killed again.

Besides, when I look deep into his eyes, past the public mask, I can see the frustration that matches mine.   He's not going to make me wait much longer.

Is he?

 
Part 2:  Maybe

Comments

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

I'm an adult child abuse survivor, the only one in my family who stood up, named the problem, and got help. Consequently the "bad girl" of my family for "saying all those nasty lies" and airing the dirty laundry in public. There's no such thing as "uninteresting" family get-togethers.

*shrug* It could be worse. The ones who didn't get help are still trapped in a living hell. I just visit there on holidays.

[ru-salki99.livejournal.com]

I love this. Jack is so Ianto's bitch :D

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

And loving every minute of it. :D

[tanarian.livejournal.com]

*smirk* Payback's a bitch, ain't it, Jack? Got to love this. And the mental image of Jack climbing the walls out of sheer sexual frustration is a beautiful one.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

I deleted your email comment for the sake of your privacy. I hope you don't mind.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

*smirk* Payback's a bitch, ain't it, Jack?

*wicked evil grin* Exactly!

[eumenidis.livejournal.com]

Bwahahahahah! *Love* it. Though if Jack really believes that once they hit the sheets again it'll mark the end of the matter--ahh, such a *rude* awakening.

Re: your family's attitude--well, that *is* typical, isn't it? My family is much the same, though since my mother's become increasingly dependent on me she treats me some better. These days it's mostly my oldest brother's & sister-in-law's underhanded spite that's a trial.

[badwolf36.livejournal.com]

Entirely amused by this. Poor Jack. This having to be at someone else's mercy regarding a relationship is new for him. And it's hilarious. :) Thanks for sharing!

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

I've learned that as long as I don't expect them to be "any better than they are" (to use a fine old phrase) I don't get hurt. It's when I expect them to behave like decent human beings that I end up paying for it.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

"Karma's gonna get you if you don't watch out!"

[eumenidis.livejournal.com]

True. Though in the case of my mother's child-molesting brother & bizarre sister, except for family business, I just don't associate with them at all. Truth is, even if they weren't abusive, they aren't the kind of people I'd care to associate with, as they are stereotypical ignorant rednecks.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

My sympathies. If it's any consolation, they probably don't like being related to you any better.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

Sadistic!Ianto is totally made of win.

[tresa-cho.livejournal.com]

Hee, very well done.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

Thank yu. :)

[eumenidis.livejournal.com]

Not really, since I'm not an emotional sadist. Though if you're referring to my "redneck" remark, I can deal quite well with uneducated working-class people; it's the vicious, destructive ones I avoid.

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

I live in Redneck Central, I don't have a problem with them per se. But over the years I've made the vicious, destructive people really unhappy when I refuse to play their games by their rules. :D

[veejean45.livejournal.com]

Oh this was perfect! Who wouldn't love being in charge of Captain Jack? Hopefully we'll get to see more of this in a sequel...(hint hint)

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

Oh this was perfect! Who wouldn't love being in charge of Captain Jack?

Who indeed? But it would take someone very smart, extremely strong-willed, a bit obsessive and more than a bit sadistic to pull it off.

Hopefully we'll get to see more of this in a sequel...(hint hint

We'll see what the muse brings.

[veejean45.livejournal.com]

Somehow I think Ianto is up to the challenge--and I think Jack would love it. By the way I just finished your Training fics--I'm new to Torchwood, got a lot of catching up to do--and I think they're amazing! Are there any more?

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Just click on the fic tag and that will pull them all up.

[eumenidis.livejournal.com]

Or refuse to play their games at all, I suspect. By the way, the sense in which I'm using the term is synonymous with vicious & destructive.

[wanted-a-pony.livejournal.com]

Sweeeeeeeet! "What goes around, comes around" = some of the hottest damn foreplay imaginable. And I can't help but belive (hope, maybe?) that Jack realizes that "payback's a bitch" will apply just as well when Ianto finally lets them get overtly sexual. After all, Jack *is* thoroughly experienced--wouldn't that have to include experience in patience, tantric-like frustration, trembling on the edge longer than he thinks his nerves can possibly take....?

Or perhaps Ianto will make Jack tell him just how frustrated he is, show just how much he wants him, while Ianto considers whether Jack has suffered enough.... Gosh, it's just so much fun to watch these two now. Thanks so much for writing & sharing this!

[crabby-lioness.livejournal.com]

I think that's Ianto's game plan. But life loves to throw curve balls!

[crowson75.livejournal.com]

*Grins* This made me smile. I dhould be thinking poor Jack...and I sort of am. But I also love that Ianto's getting to be in complete control. Lovely.